I got a call from Bill (for those of you who dont know who he is, he's my mom's former work partner. Let just say..he wasnt a nice guy. Dont really like going into the details ) naturally I didnt pick up. Every time something happens with mom, he calls. Then I get call from my grandpa Prescott and he says mom was fired from Interstate. .....its not good. She wont pick up her phone when I call but will send me small txt msgs. She dosnt have any where to go..and I'm afraid that her being fired is the last straw for her. She'll be going to Iraq. Regardless of my sister and brother who dont think she will..well, she will. None of us thought she would become a truck driver..and she did. Mom has the strength to go to Iraq..and she will. So I don't know what else to do...As the saying goes, your whole world can turn upside down or fall in an instant.




God wont talk to me
I gues she's pretty busy lately
I like to believe
She's listening

I'm starting to feel
All of my bruises imagined all real
I'll get through each day
Dip through the bad ones
To get to the good ones
Who's keeping score anyway

And this is my beautiful life
Only thing certain is everything changes
Lows and the highs
And almost goodbyes
As odd as it get's like which still is amazing
To be alive
It's a beautiful life

I talk in my sleep
That the one place i know no one can hear me
I tell my self things
Walk in the shadows, there's always tommorow
And I'm right where i want to be

And this is my beautiful life
Only things certain is everything changes
Lows and the highs
And almost goodbyes
As odd as it get's like which still is amazing
To be alive
It's a beautyful life

Oh it hurts while it happened i wanna feel everything
How can u know till you try
And this is my beautiful life

My beautiful life
Only things sudden is everything changes
Lows and the highs
And almost goodbyes
As odd as it get's like no which still is amazing
To be alive
It's a beautiful life